Facade

Squeeze my heart
Feeling you're here

But you don't

Seeing the silhouette of us
in the rain

And heart reaching emptiness

It's a facade
cos when heart says ok
That's a lie

Let me cry
in the rain
so no one sees my teardrops

I am not a choice

I have walked along the road
I know I am never the one
I am just a choice!

Expectations keep chasing me
Whispering to me
"I am not a choice"

When night comes
Trembling I become
Trying to give you up..

Comprehension fails me sometimes
Why don't I mind
even being a choice?

A protest is made within
"I am a full soul
I can't accept
I can't wait
Impossible!
In pain you made me!"

The question arises
is that really you?

Still

I am walking on the road...

Revelation

Things remain the same not
Across the clear sky
The beautiful glimpse you caught
fooled your clouded eye...

Do you see now?

To the sun you flew
you'd rather be blind
See it anew
The truth is unkind

Do you realize it somehow?

Lovely images stacked, chuck them behind!
Insignificance!

Eyes wide open, behold
to the end of the road
The silhouette turned so cold
no longer warm and glowed

Walk down the streets
you think life feed you sweets?

You'll DAMN your ego!

The tip of the love
as but a needle
the coldness sips thru your heart
you think it little

You are a FOOL with delusions...

Cry Cry Cry!Go fuckin cry!

Would he love me?

She wept as her days dragged sadly by.
Never had she felt such desperate sighs.
For he who held her heart never paused
Though she told him boldly, would he thaw.

All she ever wanted was to share, not to burden
Her love was real and not to cause any pain
She passed his heart door and knocked on his heart
Did he ever peek to look and let me in?

Oh, what would it take to catch his eye?
How to interest such a handsome guy?
She moaned and groaned almost every night.
Could he even see how he was in my sight?
But maybe he kept his heart windows sealed up tight.

So one gray night she took him a cupcake,
Chocolate with nuts, and he was awake.
He answered the door and invited her in.
Oh, my, she thought. What a gorgeous grin.

Ah, the night was young, with barely a moon.
So they played music and danced to a tune.
And Cath sighed, so happy at last
His arms were around her, holding her fast.

The moon slipped behind the clouds of gray,
And darkness plunged all the light away.
Cath laughed when she felt him bite down,
But then sighed and died with an ashen frown.

saying "I love you..."

Reflection

 

A little mirror stands in front of me:
her hair is as black as mine.
To mimic is a game that brings such glee;
where will this strong resemblance draw the line?

Her wide grin mirrors mine as well,
eyes squeezed shut over undimpled cheeks.
Will she also take on my faults--
run into walls, have allergies, and an absent mind?

I need to act and speak so carefully
if she is to reflect each thing I do;
an "uh-oh" turns my head to face myself--
a little mirror stands in front of me.

Lost

A girl
lost in her loneliness
closed off from the pain
that so long has surrounded her
I am lost
who will find me?

When I was a little kid...

When I was a little kid, I was easily impressed by anything around me. I liked to play "masak-masak (playing cooking) with my brother and my neighbours, and I would cut paper, lots of them, and pretended it was rice, and sell it, pretending it was nasi lemak (I did develop such ambition to sell rice in market lol ) before my mom yelled at me and asked me to clean up all the papers I have messed around. Then I used to ride bicycle with my neighbours every morning, racing, karet jepang, badminton, kites....And also played barbie dolls... or bongkar pasang dolls. Everything was easier to like, I had great fun!!

Talking about neighbours, I have one childhood friend, he is Sengkim (Hendrik), he is same old with me, we were always going everywhere together, I remember when I was about to take English lesson, as he was at the same course with me and one day he was sick, I would cry cos he was not there with me and vice versa, we always burst in tantrum if we were not together. We used to play many stuffs together, but before any of you think that we develop any romantic interest, ewww.....no way with Sengkim, he is like my brother already. Hehe... Then we grow up and sayonara Sengkim, we talk less and less and almost never now, especially now he is in Singapore.

Just seeing how simple things were when we were little kids, but in the mind of little kids, things actually look complicated for them too that they sometimes cried, burst into stupid tantrum, and now we laugh at how we were actually childish that time. Ah, Ecclesiastes 3: 1 There's always a time for everything...Time to be kids, time to grow up, Problem is when people are actually grown ups, but being childish...lol

P.S: I wish I could post my pics when I was little kid, but they were old pics, I am too lazy to scan, but I always have my hair tied like this comic artwork (by Natalie Dee) I put here.

A little child
so innocent and free
full of joy and love
uninhibited by those fears
that plague me
so trusting and naive
always forgiving
seeing beauty
in everyone and everything
self-confidently taking on life
bold and daring
risking her all
to capture a world

What happened to that child
within me?

Rain

The sky cries for the ground below,
As small raindrops grow into larger ones,
As the tears fall upon the parched ground.

Plunging,
Falling,
teardrops collide.

The grass drinks the tears,
of the crying skies above.
Life begins anew,
the tears of the sky are forgotten.

And life grows and becomes older,
and then cries out for the skies,
as it withers away today.

The rainy days continue,
the life is renewed by the strength given,
from the crying skies above. 

Love is...

love is a dream
that does not stop
when you awaken
but constantly surprises
no strong emotions
stirring up dust
and clouding your vision
 
love is more than it seems
and has a purpose
you cannot see
and yet
cannot hide from
 
love is an inescapable reality
that knocks you
senseless
takes your breath away
and leaves no heart beating
but its own

Wild Nights by Emily Dickinson

Just wanna share something that my friend shared with me today, such a wonderful piece of Emily Dickinson's about passion, love.

Here it is:
The title is Wild Nights

Wild Nights – Wild Nights!
Were I with thee
Wild Nights should be
Our luxury!
Futile – the winds –
To a heart in port –
Done with the compass –
Done with the chart!
Rowing in Eden –
Ah, the sea!
Might I moor – Tonight –
In thee!

 

My solitude ain't really a solitude

They often lecture in voices scorning
While I pass by full of idle thought.
They cast doubts upon my peaceful morning
As if to rob me of the silence sought.
Those silly people, they scarce can see
How little cause for their anxious worry
My lazy passage through their morns should be.
For amid their frantic race to hurry
I am alone, and yet, I'm not alone.
The hills, the swaying trees, the gentle earth,
My repository of thoughts unknown;
And the sky, displaying its daily birth
All red and gold and orangish-hued;
These all greet my solitude.

Broken elixir

It seems that my gears are turning once again my dearest boils and ghouls…I am writing again, with fevered passion…with frenzied pace…though I must admit at times I am still running up against a wall. I have been stumped lately. Like a sponge that has been squeezed dry of all creativity. It is coming back to me…yet again, but it is disheartening when my well-spring runs low.
At times it feels as if the little imps that run things within my mind have slammed all the doors shut, locking and barring me from opening them. Those little mischief makers in my head have no problem causing all sorts of vivid, heartbreaking flashbacks, yet they torment me by making my desire and heart to stay cold from time to time. Or maybe it’s my way to act aloof , so that I don’t have to be too emotional  in dealing with agony? Questions and questions add up and I simply can’t answer it right now, or maybe it’s not even worth asking, I just don’t know.

What is it that makes us think with our hearts? Why do I allow memories of the past to influence what I do in the present?

I cherish every relationship I ever had, including the bad ones. Each one taught me something, now of course at the time of the relationships I didn’t feel that way or see it that way, but hindsight is wonderful. The problem though isn’t in what I learned, but rather in the ones that ended in a way without closure. To this day my heart wonders and wanders down paths that I need to let go of. I don’t know how though, my heart wants to know why, my heart wants to understand what it was that caused the relationship to take the turns that it did.
Maybe though there is a lesson, maybe I am supposed to be learning that not all things have a why….

Dreams are sometimes humorous, though they are the most terrible force to be reckoned with in my life. They always have been and I suspect they always will be. It’s just something else that haunts the shadowy depths of this unstable mind.

Melancholy is the mind, as it runs freely through your veins-
The agony in your mind’s asylum reaches in,
It grasps you by the reins.

In your dreams the buzzards pick at your eyes,
All you know now is the feeling of being buried alive.
You feel the December heat setting in,
All you remember now, is the sticking of a straight pin.
A song, friends, stuffs light the lantern in your mind,
They feed you the elixir of life,
Just to see what they might find.
A broken heart screams in your ear,
Now falling from your lidless eye, is a single bloody tear.
All you feel is extraordinary pain-
Melancholy is the mind, as it drives you insane. 

Flame of love

To 'somebody' the blue sapphire flame in my heart

your hand is always in mine
your whispered endearments are my constant
companion
you have never turned your face from me
no matter how many times I have turned from you

now I vow undying love
I meet you in the secret places I used to hide
from you in
I hold you with tenderness I used to reserve for
my pain
I would give you my life and my breath in an
instant

for you are my true love
the one with no form
the one who has never been anywhere, but right here
in the singing of my heart

why fear this moment
when no thoughts come
at last I lie naked
in the arms of experience

why fear this moment
when no words come
at last I find rest
in the lap of silence

why fear this moment
when love finds itself alone
at last I am embraced
by infinity itself

why fear this moment
when judgment falls away
at last my defenses
fail to keep intimacy at bay

why fear this moment
when hope is lost
at last my foolish dreams
are surrendered to perfection

I may think I feel love
but it is love that feels me
constantly testing the woven fibers
that enclose and protect my heart
with a searing flame
that allows no illusion of separation

and as the insubstantial fabric of my inner fortress
is peeled away by the persistent fire
I desperately try to save some charred remains
by escaping into one more dream of passion
I may think I can find love
but it is love that finds me

meanwhile, love becomes patient and lies in wait
its undying embers gently glowing
and even if I now turn and grasp after the source of
warmth
I end up cold and empty-handed
I may think I can possess love
but it is love that possesses me

and finally, I am consumed
for love has flared into an engulfing blaze
that takes everything
and gives nothing in return
I may think love destroys me
but it is love that sets me free

the past is long gone
from here
there is no way back
how could there be

the present is over too quickly
for feeble desires
to have any effect
except to hide peace

the future races ahead
forever out of reach
of dreamy wishes
and useless plans

and yet when I rest
in the endless now
every need is satisfied
in ways never imagined

Fly and Fall

For now the darkness is overwhelming
Like an arduous cover enfolding body and soul,
enrapturing mind with thoughts of such a depressing manner
rendering the breath that sustains life impossible to obtain,
The scream relays, rings haunting; never to die away,
The voice that should have belonged to the lost one,
comes from the sorrowful voice of mine own
echoed from the surrounding pains of all knowing
who rest unsettled by the unnecessary loss.
So many times, in a period now seemingly forgotten,
whence I longed to switch fates
to taste the sweetness seen within his perfection.
Awaken once more child!
Gravity Fails me; I fall. Awaken!
May the wind carry me away.
Fly me away.
Thaw my wings, drowned in frozen tears wept.
I might fall.

Simply untitled

The fact that there is always someone by my side
Doesn't mean I don't get lonely inside
The fact that I hold my head up with grace
Only hides the hurting heart behind this face
The fact that you don't hear my screams
Doesn't mean I don't have dreams
The idea that I seem to fly with the doves
Doesn't mean I don't desire to have love.

A lonely heart, an idle mind
Look inside and there you'll find
A need for love to hold me tight
Not only a day, nor just one night
Something to last forever, always
to lengthen the nights and shorten the days
A lonely heart and idle mind
Look inside and there you'll find
A need for love to last for life
A need for love so true so right

Because I don't cry, Doesn't mean there aren't tears
My will to be strong Is not to say there aren't fears
The fact that I won't take part
In the freak fest of the day
Doesn't mean I don't want
To be wanted, to be craved
All I want is a man I can love
Someone to wake up to, someone to hug
All I need is someone I can please
Someone with whom I can share my dreams

A lonely heart, an idle mind
Look inside and there you'll find
A need for love to hold me tight
Not only a day, nor just one night
Something to last forever, always
to lengthen the nights and shorten the days
A lonely heart and idle mind
Look inside and there you'll find
A need for love to last for life
A need for love so true so right

Frozen

Once upon a time
There lived a maiden
with the traits as sour as lime
she felt bitter and deadened

Love she did no longer trust
For her heart was frozen
Her heart once was love-thrust
And then, it was utterly broken...

"What to do in this life?"
She always had to question
"Is it a lesson?"
"Then wouldn't it have been better to be wounded by knife?"

Tears had been shed
Pieces were re-collected
The emotion then was dead
Yes, iced and unwanted

Everything had been temporary
Even the most pulchritude of love could end, sorry
Ended by death, and no more
Empty and overwhelmed with sore

So, the maiden made up her mind
Her heart should not melt to 'love'
And that this would make her fine
Only she could never laugh

To her ending, there was no happiness
She was then gone with emptiness
Heart as frozen as ice
No hurt, no heart being sliced...

You see, how life can be meaningless
When we detach
It's just so pointless
not to attach

Don't be stupid
Love is always a process
Attachment is like a bid
for us to take and be a realist

Frozen emotion
What good does it pay?
Tell me for my information
Why do some people choose that way?

A dream saga (A collaborative ballad)

First, thanks to Jonathan M who initiated this as a comment on my poem in facebook note, now,I would love to share in my blog how this ballad has become, it's very funny, romantic and interesting with efforts to make the lines rhyme, despite few inconsistencies...This poem can be found originally in my comments in my note on facebook titled 'Frozen', and anyone who feels like prolonging it can comment more on the notes,welcome, and please please do...I myself found it very fun as this is so unpredictable and abrupt... But, we can consider this ended, unless there are more lines later, then I will update.



Jonathan M at 10:26am March 25

Once upon a time
There was a knight
Who lived to make a dime
By conquest and by fight

Power overcame reason
Victory a constant lust
But soon will come the season
When all will return to dust


Cath at 12:02pm March 25

Cos love then came unknowingly and forcefully
Power conquest and fight are no longer that intense
A thing has overwhelmed his mind truly
A love has came to him in immense

A lady in one of his excurse
Frail, beautiful and unprotected
Whether or not he had himself in curse
His reasons were emotionally-tainted


Jimmy  at 1:52pm March 27

Then Came a night!
With thunderstorms and sky light!
When a Demon Came from underworld
ready to take over the earth

The knight knew what needed to be done
To let his kingdom shine by the Sun
Leaving his lady under the protection of god
he went to fight the demon in the weather red hot


Jonathan M at 3:44pm March 27

Onward to battle the undead!
With seven heads and seven tentacles
Whose roar filled men's heart with dread
And it's eyes a diabolical spectacle

Unleashed the fury of a beast
Chained for eons beneath the earth
The knight in armor not daunted the least
For he fought for the lady who filled his heart with mirth

Jimmy at 8:04pm March 27

The Day was cursed the hearts were bent
A rumour sneaked Girl like a rodent
The knight had died She Came to know
And from her eyes oceans began to flow

Stood on the Demon's 3rd head Knight Slashed his Sword
Piercing it in its heart more can the Demon could afford
Taking a sommersault, Knight landed on the Ground
Demon bled to death,n Knight,in style,spun his sword around

Cath at 11:22pm March 27

Day by day the lady felt miserable
Tears came flowing and intolerable
She had thought of his man’s death morning and night
How would she lead her life without her knight?

She could not release this obsession
She would simply go out of this vexation
Tempted to join him in his new place
Trying to find some toxic so she wouldn’t face anymore days

Jimmy at 2:09pm March 28

So she decided what needed to be done
she decided to end her life with a gun
She took the gun fixed it on her head
She glanced the window with her face wide spread

she shed her tears for the time last
Her mind was stunned and thoughts came fast
When suddenly she saw a bright light
blurring completely her eyesight

Cath at 2:22pm March 28

Her man was standing at the front door
Light came showed the only man she adore
Heavy agony turned bliss
Her longing and worry came into peace

Tears came and blurred her eyes
Trying to say, tell and shout
But all she knew her love was so big in size
Thank God,alive her knight she thought about

Jimmy at 2:31pm March 28

But then it disappeared like a shadow
She fell down on the floor like a meadow
Was she going insane she thought
So she fixed the gun back on the spot

One of Knights Friends was passing by
Beneath the graceful starry sky
He was so smart and his name was Kevin
Startlingly he heard a gunshot from his friend's cabin

Cath at 2:47pm March 28

Kevin hurried and looked what happened
He could see the lady there
She was very emotionally dampened
Decided to die before it gave her more nightmare

But what made Kevin more surprised
Was his best friend hugging her lady on his lap
The lady had planned to die to pay her price
But the knight made her miss the shot by slap

Jimmy at 2:59pm March 28

Kevin was still glancing the scene
when suddenly they heard a hard scream
Knight glanced out of window to outside
A Monster had came out of nowhere like a tide

Knight ordered kevin to escape with her lady
And he took out his sword like a real slim shady
As they cleared the house The Monster banged Fist
For the escape Knight gave his body a nice twist

Cath at 3:31pm March 28

The lady was so panicked
"Is this a trick?"
One thing she had in mind was just
Never ever leave her man in gust

So, she pulled herself out from Kevin
Chasing her man worrying and finding hint
Taking her own sword and trying to fight
Not waiting and crying out of her man's sight

Jimmy at 3:52pm March 28

The Monster was Huge as Mountain
But they were pouring with Love Fountain
They Jumped together like flying darts
They knew one hell of Martial Arts

They Jumped long on the Monster's Head
They Didn't fear at all to be dead
Two swords flashed like a bolt
Giving the monster A Painful Jolt

Cath at 11:27pm March 28

The monster fell into pieces
Breaking into lots of smaller spheres
One of them grabbed the princess
and flew away into the darkest atmospheres

The knight shouted in fear
Knowing that his lady was missing was beyond the pale
All of a sudden, he felt queer
This is the first time he felt so frail...l

Jimmy at 1:37am March 29

Then he clenched his teeth and fist
He gave his muscles a roring twist
he took out his sword from the sheath
And went to monsters lair beneath

Dark was the lair with webs of spider
and mysterious liquids flowing everywhere
But he was like his own world rider
His Legs were firm in that dark sphere

Cath at 2:07am March 29

Lady was hurt and got injured
There in the lair she was absorbed with poison
Tears went flowing and nightmares conjured
And dreams on her prince flew away far and worsened

All the whirls came and she forgot
just like a brainwashing she could not
remember a thing on her romance with her knight
In that darkest lair her love was put off in a night


Jimmy at 3:31am March 29

Exploring the darkest corners was the knight
He expected a mighty fight
His sword was flashing with the light
N he sensed danger so held his breath tight

Suddenly without his notice
Ground slipped from his feet
And he fell in a trapdoor
too dark for light to reseat

Cath at 3:38am March 29

The lady woke up in the middle of that dungeon
She couldn't figure out what brought her here
Nothing, no one, no explanation was shown
She went out and left her place without fear

She heard a scream in gloom
She wondered and searched for that desperate emotion
She then found a room
and there she found a familiar charming man in question

Jimmy at 10:38pm March 29

He looked at her eyes large and deep
Like there were a thousand promises to keep
She said nothing and nothing he said
But Silent tiny droplets of rain were overshed

He felt something that smelt more than vengeance
Her eyes seemed to question his own existence
He brought his lips closer to her and she was tainted
But he felt his head heavy and on the spot fainted


Cath at 11:43pm March 29

The knight fell down hard and sickened
Guess a strong knight could lose too
Not to any monsters but to his lady without his clue
He was too tired fighting and heart broken

The lady was so haggard
Her feeling was so stunned by him and complex
This man, he was leaving her perplexed
She reached him and kissed him hard

Jimmy at 9:41am March 30

Golden tears of princess on the knight's face fell
He woke up like she had broken a spell
She ran her hands on his forehead
He looked at her eyes waiting for something to be said

Suddenly a black smoke covered the scene
Knight startled and princess Screamed
From out of the shadows of undead
A mysterious fire had started to spread



Jonathan M at 1:13pm March 30

"Flee!" cried the knight and together they ran
Deeper and deeper into the fiend's den
Away from the flame which engulfs a man
Into the unknown into the beast's pen

Twisting and turning the labyrinth before them
Until they exhausted and collapsed in each others arms
Breathless, yet in ecstasy, all they could fathom
But their quest didn't end as they lay in their charms


Jimmy at 7:29pm March 30

Cruel was the fire
Intense was the game
They were lying in each other's arms
And their love was still the same

Bleeding Were The feet
Emotions were discreet
So Intense they hugged each other
As a new born child is hugged by his mother


Cath at 10:24pm March 30

In that darkest place there came disgusting creatures
Not only one, but many being ravenous
They clapped desiring how to cut them in fractures
Myriad ways were thought by the knight out of his cleverness

The lady, scared but felt brave at the same moment
In that lost memory and tension, she was still in question
This man, she found many things in common
Her heart was beating fast between fear and compunction


Jimmy at 5:01pm March 31

Fire was Spreading and creatures were on the loose
Narrow was there life and death to choose
Princess came behind knight as a calf
Knight took out his sword and started to slice creatures in half

he was battling with extreme desire
The creatures he killed he threw it in the fire
But the battle was thousands against the one
So once again he held princess's hand and started to run


Cath at 12:11pm April 1

On their way out of the dungeon they were lost in despair
Running all the way incessantly and with pressure
The lady couldn't stand despite she was in pair
Cos then she felt her head hurt as in fissure

"Go away, leave me!" she told the knight
Tears was all over her but she was definite
The knight wouldn't survive if she was with him tight
One thing for sure, her love was infinite


Jimmy at 3:44pm April 1

Knight Stunned, Looked once the lady
And Suddenly all the exhaust went fady
Bathed in Sweat He Froze in his Spot
To be or not to be he knew not

The Princess was crying fire was spreading
All the hopes in her eyes were deading
suddenly when the desperation overlapped like a shot of Gun
Knight held the princess in his arms and started to run

Cath at 12:25pm April 14

Hours passed, ultimately they saw a shed of light
Leading their way out of that horrible pit
They ran faster, and the monsters were out of sight
Feeling blissful where their hearts could safely sit

The way out was blocked by a big stone
Hardly could the knight move that thing
But with love, persistence in the tone
The big rock moved, and light gave them blink

Jimmy at 10:32pm April 14

So came out they from endless pit and started to run
Their bodies were now shining by the sun
They looked back at the pit and it was about to blast
Diving to the ground Knight took cover of princess fast

Kabooom the cave blew and came out the black smoke
Knight looked at the princess and she was in a state of choke
Knight wiped her lips off the dust
He then fixed his lips to princess with a thrust

Cath at 10:38 pm April 15

The kiss from the knight was utterly delicate
The princess looked up and all seemed illusory
Their love, struggle only they could elucidate
After all, the monsters, the fights all were just cursory

"Has it ended?" Princess conceived
In the hug, with the smile and the look on the knight's face
"Who cares?" The princess perceived
All she would do was feeling their hearts' pace

 Jimmy at 5:53pm April 17

Was that the end no it was not
The earth began to Shake On the spot
From underneath the earth dug a hole
A serpent emerged gigantic in whole

Knight glanced at the princess then at the serpent
Serpent glanced at their sweaty bodies shining radiant
Like a thief approaches a precious gem light
Serpent began to approach the princess and the knight

Jonathan M at 7: 32 pm May 5

It taunted them as it circled the two
Casting gusts of wind in the wake of its movements
Dwarfed in size, it's scales could not be cut through
Both knight and lady relived their last moments

They held tight to each other as the snake drew near
Its tongue flicked out in anticipation of the prey
And as the duo were going to give in to their fear
Along came Kevin to save the day

Cath at 1: 38 pm May 13

Kevin rescued and they ran fast
Suddenly a flash of light came out in the dark night
It was the flash of a sword the princess saw at last
The sword was reaching fast towards the knight

Princess' last fear was the knight came to die
So without further ado, she came and received the blade
She said "I love you, goodbye" in the darkest night shade
And with that the princess gave her last breath and die

Jimmy at 4:38pm May 13

Knight In desperation hugged the princess
he burried his head in her heart and felt riches
Then he knew his fate wasn't cheating
He still felt her heart beating

The blade had venom and it was spreading fast
The princess still had a few breaths to last
So the knight sucked out all the venom looking at the sky
The venom spread though his blood taking away his life

Cath at 5:17 pm May 13

That would be so much better, the knight regret
Cos when he opened his eyes, this is no lie
The princess frail, so delicate, so pallid
yet, she was no longer there and she died

Knight wished he could turn back time
That he died instead of his sweetheart
But the story wasn't like this, it's hard
The princess died for him, he would not waste his time

Jimmy at 6: 49 pm May 13

At last princess opened her eyes to find the knight dead
She dreamt of her love in pain and sobbing her death
It was a sleep but this was real
she wondered at her heart pain so in appeal

Then Kevin came and wiped the princess tears
She was still so beautiful like brittany spears
Kevin gave princess another reason a bliss
he moved her lips closer and gave a passionate kiss

Cath at 7:01 pm May 13

Oh that was again only Kevin's darkest mind
The Knight sighed and buried the princess
He knew he had to live and be fine
cos what he had with her were gone into pieces

As for Kevin, he then tried to kill the knight
cos in his darkest psyche, he hated that warrior
How could this guy miss the blade meant to scythe?
And killed the woman he loved in ulterior

Jimmy at 4:37 pm May 19

But just when knight was weeping with a crave
A hand rose out from underneath the grave
The knight was startled and was frozen
Princess tore outta grave with power of dozen

Her eyes were flaming red, her teeth were pointed long
she was possessed by some evil spirit very strong
she jumped on the knight before he could recover
held him by the throat and choked life out of him sooner

Cath at 10:12 pm May 19

Afterwards, the princess woke up from the spell
And yes, that's true how evil had consumed her entity
She looked down and saw her man not well
died in fact and was supposed to be the end and it's pity

So, she decided, no this is not ended yet
She would then go for the knight's knife
She saw she could actually become his loving wife
and too bad she killed herself to be the safest heart bet

Cath at 10:15 pm May 19

She woke up and saw her knight
On the balcony with the shimmering light
Oh, is this heaven or hell
Who cares? She's with her knight and he's well

And so they died, and met in afterlife
They looked at each other and heck
even in afterlife their love is back
Cos that's better than not being together in life

Freedom

rain falls
within the endless awareness
the sun still shines
behind the clouds

loss rips
at the heart of love
empty peace still rests
at the source of tears

floods wash
away the precious hillsides
life rises to the surface
for another breath of joy

thoughts race
across the mind’s attention
quiet still sings
from the throat of nowhere

pure freedom remains
when all else is
swallowed in the river of time